Ok, so I’ve been a slacker, but that’s nothing new. I haven’t been working on my habits very much, but I joined the flylady mailing list this week and I’m going to try to get focused. So here’s the update on the 101 things.
( I haven't done much )
God, this is going to sound really fucking corny.... About 5 years ago, my friend Tensi from work and I were talking about how unhappy and lonely I was. I was nursing a cracked heart and frustrated with the way my life was going. And she told me, well, you can't get anything if you don't ask for it. She said that someone had told her to write down everything she wanted in a potential mate and then pray or meditate about it. And then give it up to God or the universe or whatever. So I thought about it for a while. Alanis Morissette had released the album with "21 Things I Want In A Lover" on it not that long ago, so I decided to write my own 21 things. I posted it on my OpenDiary and a few weeks later, well, you can guess who I ran into in Books A Million in Gainesville. I still have the response he wrote to my list saved in my email. :D
I have a really hard time with the concept of "let go and let god," mainly because of my upbringing. My stepfather's a big fan of self-reliance, and he instilled that in me, and it's kind of shooting me in the foot. I'm overworking myself and I'm stressed out, big time. So I'm going to make another list of specific things that I want (and maybe post it here) and see what happens. It can't hurt to try, and I could use a reminder that I don't need to take care of everything and everyone.