I wanted to be...... A LUMBERJACK!!!!

I never wanted to be one of those people who talked about how good they used to be at things, but I find myself doing it a lot. I think part of the reason I'm doing it us out of a desperate attempt not to look like a stupid loser. The thing is, I don't feel like I can take credit for my past scholastic accomplishments - besides the violin - because I didn't work for any of it. Yes, I did the reading and paid attention in class, but that's what I was supposed to do. But I never studied and rarely did homework.

Now I'm in the middle of fighting to get everything taken care of so I can start school - my HCC transcript finally came in (not entered yet), but I'm still hounding the college board to get off their asses and send out my AP scores - and I'm feeling more embarrassed and upset with myself over fucking up the wonderful opportunity I had 15 years ago. The truth is, it's not entirely my fault. And my life now is good. But ugh, my pride hurts.