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[fisme_nasu]

Everything is so frustrating right now. I'm ready for this term to be over. I've gotten 90 on both tests, which puts me at a B. I have to ace the next test and the Hesi if I want to pull an A, which I really want because this is a 6 credit class. Doug got 100 on the last one (he also made a 90 on the first test). I'm not comparing myself to him but I feel like I should be doing as well, if not better. I'm going to buckle down and study like hell this week - well, once I've got my assignments out of the way, anyway.

I'm still waiting to hear about this job. I called the HR department but couldn't get hold of anyone.

Money is very tight.

I'm sick of being unhappy all the time. I'm trying to do little things for myself to feel better, but it's not working that well. It's like class days; when I'm there, things are good and I feel more like myself but the second it's over, I crash back down. I can't keep leaning on my classmates for help. They don't complain and they always act as if they are glad to help me/be around me, but past history has shown me that there comes a point for almost everybody that, if you go past it, they stop wanting to be around you.

I feel like this post is completely incoherent. Ugh. I guess I should go read up on GERD.

Comments

[fieryredqueen.livejournal.com]

It seems like people are happy to help as long as it appears that their help is improving things. If, after a while, you are still having the same old problems, they get tired of it.

[fisme-nasu.livejournal.com]

That's another thing I have a hard time with. I find it very difficult when things are bad to just gloss over them. My friend Mike is always telling me to smile or to act like things are good so it will encourage others. I'm always happy to encourage others but there are times (like now) that I don't want to fake happiness.