Trigger.

Welcome to Dulac, such a perfect town
Here we have some rules, let us lay them down
Don't make waves, stay in line
And we'll get along fine
Dulac is the perfect place.

I am so angry right now. The massacre in PA - that guy went after women. Specifically women. Because he hadn't gotten laid in 20 years and his mother was domineering. At least, that's the spin the press is putting on it, and downplaying that he just killed women.

There's a local news story about a female prison guard who was raped by the man she was guarding - a violent criminal who was given special privileges because his mother worked in that prison. The city attorney tells her she can't sue because it falls under workmans comp (or something like that). And people are saying that it's pretty much her fault for daring to do a men's job. She should have expected something like this to happen eventually. And now she should just shut up about it and deal.

That song from Shrek is pretty much what society everywhere tells women to do. Sit down. Be quiet. Don't try to outshine a man in anything. Your needs come last. You are here to be visually and physically pleasing. Don't have any desires unless it's for your man. Don't express any desire, don't dare to be different, don't be too loud, too fat, too smart, too cocky. Give us what we want or we'll take it from you, one way or the other.

I was molested as a small child. Raped and sexually assaulted as a teenager. Emotionally abused by boyfriends. Pressured into doing things I didn't want to because I was a bad person if I didn't. And all the authority figures I knew hinted that those things were my fault, or at least not the fault of the boys and men because they didn't know any better or there was something wrong with them that caused them to do what they did. And because I had big breasts.

I am tired of hiding. Of making excuses and accepting other people's. I am filled with rage and I'm going to put it to good use by teaching my children, my family, and my friends that this kind of behavior and acceptance of something so fundamentally wrong is unacceptable.